has conforming to the rationalisations of my mind confined me and prevented an other wise seemingly inevitable progession? this seems to be a recurring theme in my mind of late. (from the little moments when i lose my guard and am unable to prevent myself from intelligent thought (or so i must asume considering my total lack of thought lately))
life seems to be paused and looks as though it will remain as so for the forseeable future. i think the main concern is my seeming inability to think. i experience servier exhaustion from concentrated thought and feel fatigued at simply thinking and thinking. its a worrying situation to be in. to this i can assign simple physical reason such aslackof sleep, but these i know are just excuses, then one layer behind them are the phschological reasonings but these also are simply exccuses and hold no realy currency… and to delve much further requires that consistency of mind which is elluding me.
so how then can one solve a problem to which one does not know the question? i have only ever known two fundamental ways to answer a question. either from the front or from behind. at first glance these two would realate to rational and intuitive decision making. however both of these principles can be used from a frontal or from behind. so that gives you 4 possible ways to answering a problem.
1 or 1 and half of these can be used on a problem which is unknown. (i think, possibly could be that 3 of the ways would work. needs testing)
also i’ve decied to keep this monolgue free from trivial dealings of what actualy happens in day to day life. initialy i kind of felt like that was somehow expected and almost a nessecity, however such as i find it inconsiquential and drab to recount i will keep this as a literary exercise in understanding myself from the perspective of things i see strongly enough to relate publicly.
fresh air and exercise for you my boy. I am always amazed how it makes you actually less tired.