there are events in life that that you know are a turning point and change the course of ur life for ever. it constantly amazes me how often these occur and they seem to be coming at an almost exponentionally greater rate. often these are events that you can control and can choose were you go and often when you make the choice. however they can also be entirely out of your control and this of course is where i am at the moment. i can see it coming towards me, time is advancing and all i can do is brace myself. i’m not scared its nothing i cannot deal with either way, but it makes me uneasy to feel so un-inconrtol of my own destiny. this day was to be tomorow, now however it will be later. but no matter it is the same.
i feel stronger now tho, i have been drained for so long, but evryday now i grow. there r many courses of action imagined, only needing implimentation, and i want to and i will. but now i need to brace myself.
